Thursday, June 25, 2015

Personal Post

You may have read here that I have been waiting on something in my life. I've been on the fence for months on whether to share what that is on this little space of mine. I didn't know if it would be "too personal." The more I thought about it, I came to the conclusion that this is my corner of the internet, a place for me to share what I'm going through in my life - good or bad.

So often, bloggers only share the high points in their lives. But I'm a real girl with real problems. So despite what this blog might show on a daily basis, I do have my fair share of ups and downs in life. As does everyone, right?

So I've decided to share with you all what we've being going through for a few reasons: It helps me to express my feelings, for the support and prayers, and because I've read similar stories of what I'm going through on other blogs and it has been so uplifting. If this post can encourage even just one person - then I think it's totally worth sharing.

Chris and I have been trying to have a baby for over a year now. In February, I went to my OBGYN to express concerns of it taking so long. To make a long story short, an HSG test showed that my tubes could be blocked. I was devastated to find this out - thinking that my only chance to get pregnant might be through IVF.

We started seeing a fertility doctor in March, and he wanted to perform surgery to see if my tubes were blocked, and if so, try to clean them out so that I can get pregnant naturally. I decided to post pone the surgery until school was out, as it would put me down for a week. When you're a teacher, taking off a full week is not really an option.

So this week (on Tuesday) I had my surgery. And I'm so excited to share that the surgery went as good as it possibly could. My tubes WERE NOT blocked!! My doctor explained that sometimes the HSG test indicates they may be blocked, but when they get in there to look more closely, that isn't the case.

I am so happy that they are open, and the chance of me getting pregnant naturally is back on the table. The only thing they found during the surgery was that I did have small amounts of endometriosis. They were able to clean it out, which is good because it can cause infertility if not treated.

So we have all of our questions answered and hopefully will have our little bundle of joy soon. We are so relieved that they are open and so happy to have our prayers answered. God has a plan for everything, and me going through this surgery was part of His plan. I haven't really had any symptoms of endometriosis, so we would have never known about it if I had not done the surgery. God sure knows what He is doing!

I have so many friends who are going through a similar situation - waiting to be parents. If you are, I hope that this post will give you a little hope! Things aren't always as bad as they seem, and good things take time. If you're not going through something like this, then I ask that you pray for me and the others who are. Motherhood is so special, and when you want it so bad, even thinking about waiting another month is so hard and will wear your patience thin.

I hope the surgery also explains my absence from the blog the past week - my mind was obviously somewhere else. :) I am recovering just fine from the surgery, just a little sore but having a lot of couch time, which also means a lot of Netflix and soup. Not bad if you ask me. We are excited to move forward from here and see what God has in store for us next - hopefully becoming parents! But I'm trying to remember that no matter what, everything will happen according to God's plan - and His plan only, not mine.

Have you ever been through fertility issues, or know someone who has? I think the support is so crucial during a time like this, as well as sharing and talking about it - because you are NOT the only one going through it. And every time you hear a success story, it gives you more hope for your own story. Thanks so much for stopping by and letting me share a little of my personal life with you! Happy almost weekend!