Monday, March 5, 2018

New Beginnings

Well, hey guys! It's been a while, right?! The last time I posted, I was announcing our pregnancy (after a long journey of infertility and doing a round of IVF) - but, goodness, a lot has changed since then. Don't worry, we are still awaiting the arrival of our precious baby GIRL in June and all is well on the pregnancy front. I still wake up every day and think, "I can't believe I'm pregnant!", and then of course I send prayers of thanksgiving immediately. I am truly so thankful for this little miracle growing inside me!

It wasn't my intention to go silent here on the blog right after announcing we were finally pregnant (by the way, thank you so much for all the love that came along with that post!), but there were several personal things going on in our lives that made it hard to keep up with blogging. I had every intention of sharing all this wonderful holiday content, but first trimester sickness and the re-modeling of our kitchen totally took all my time! Anyway, I won't bore you with more details about that, but all in all, it was just a time where I needed to step back and think about if I wanted to continue blogging at all.

I had come to a point where I was just feeling super overwhelmed with the blogging industry in general. Any other bloggers ever feel this way? The "keeping up" has just become so much to handle. The need to always be online, have pretty photos and interesting content, network on social media so many hours a day... it can become really stressful. Then you start comparing yourself to other bloggers and how far they've come, and before you know it, you're beating yourself up about not posting or your content not being good enough... well, you get the point. Long story short, I got tired of that vicious cycle.

So I stopped posting. I stopped being on my phone all the time. I stopped worrying about getting the perfect Instagram picture. I stopped stressing about photo shoots and content. I said no to collaborations and sponsorships that came my way. The hardships of keeping up in the "blogging world" totally went away, and it felt so freeing. I thought for sure it was time to say goodbye to this little space of mine.

It was also during this time that we got some BIG news - Chris got a promotion! He is now managing a team of reps for the southwest region (he's in the employee benefits insurance business for those who don't know), and I couldn't be more proud of him. It's something he has been working towards for a few years, and the opportunity to manage the southwest territory was too good to pass up - but.... it required us to relocate to Denver, Colorado!!

We found out in the middle of December that he had gotten the job, and he was to start on January 2nd.. say what?!! So we had to act fast. We put our Nashville home on the market, started looking in Denver, and he started commuting back and forth every other week to Denver in January. I knew we had to make the official move sooner than later because, hello, we have a baby coming in June, and I wanted to be settled before she makes her debut! Plus, the commuting back and forth while trying to sell and buy homes wasn't easy on Chris. Thankfully, our house in Nashville sold in one day, and not long after, we found the one for us in Denver. I really give all the praise to God for making things happen so quickly, because the Denver market is not an easy one to buy into.

To catch you up to speed - we packed up our things (well, Chris's relocation company did) and headed out to Denver at the beginning of February! The drive out here is actually something I'll never forget. We had Louie all comfy in the back seat, and spent most of the 18 hour drive talking about the future, setting goals, and imagining what life with our little girl is going to be like. While I was really worried and stressed about the move in the beginning, I felt at peace all the way here and that hasn't changed since. Even though saying goodbye to our life in Nashville (especially our friends and church family) was really hard, I know we are right where God wants us to be.

All that to say, I was sure it was time for this blog of mine to officially be shut down - with everything we had going on, plus me just feeling burned out... but over the last few weeks this little voice has stirred inside me to dust off the keyboard and get back to blogging. It's different this time around though. I want to blog for me. Not to "make it" in the blogging world, not to make sales through LIKEtoKNOWit, not to land more collaborations and sponsorships. I want to blog because I love to write. I love sharing my thoughts on certain things. I love having a place to document things. I love creating and inspiring other people. I want to get back to the roots of why I started blogging back in 2014 to begin with... and back then it was for all those things I just mentioned.

I don't want to stress about photos and getting so much content up per week. I just want to post when I want to post and share what I feel led to share. I may still post an outfit here and there, and I may not. I may only post once a month or once a week, or a few times a week and then not at all for a month. That's the thing - I don't want a schedule and expectations and rules to come with this. Sure, I realize I'll lose the interest of people and followers along the way, but that doesn't matter to me anymore. I know that the people who love my voice and the people who I've really connected with along the way will stick around, and in the end, I ultimately want this space to be for me. My hope is to just inspire people through it along the way.

So here's to new beginnings! 2018 started off with lots of change for me, and it only seemed fitting for some change to happen here as well.  I'm really not sure what that looks like yet, but I do know that I'm excited to be back and looking forward to logging in to this space of mine a little more often! Thanks so much for those who have reached out to me over the past few months to ask where I've been and to check in... I really do love my committed readers - y'all are the best. I hope you'll love where I take this blog and the change that might come, and if not.. that's ok too! Wishing you all a great week and look forward to seeing you back here soon! XO -